Well it's been a long time since i don't put any journal here. I just wanted to talk about myself a bit.
Just months before I created this deviantArt account, I was one of those guys who was pretty good at copying stuff, and not really good at drawing. You know, I was used to just look at a picture and say "oh hey that's a good image I'm going to copy it into my sketch book" and then all my friends were like "wow you're so good" and I felt like a goddam good artist, until I discovered deviantArt where i met great artists, and guess what, I felt like shit because everyone were so good and I just compared my stuff to their stuff and felt like a noob. So in 2007 I made the decission to not copy anymore, and to start to create by myself, from imagination. Obviously I just hit a wall because I realized that I wasn't able to draw very well without looking at a picture. So that's when it all started, the long and painful process of learning and developing 'skills'.
Many people tells me "wow you're awesome, how do you do that?" and stuff like that, but I never feel like an awesome artist, I tend to feel mediocre at times, frustrated, and feel like a crappy artist and then I can't draw nothing because my mind goes blank. I'm sure this happens to you guys a lot too. The point is, that this is how it is to me since 2007, i feel like it's never enough, and that it's how it should be, because it helps a lot to being hungry for learning. This horrible feeling of "I suck at this" should help you, not make you give up.
Looking back at 2007, I've improved a lot, more than I expected, the "me" of that time would never believe I can be this 'good', however right now i'm not even close of how good I wanna be
So, people out there, who's giving their first steps in being an artist, don't ever give up, even if you feel like you never be "that" good, just work it, and do it for years, it takes a lot of practice, lot of studies, but you will start to notice that you're getting better, year by year.
And don't take this as a word from a guy who is a master, I'm just like you, I'm still learning, and I'm still working hard to get better, it started just as a hobby, and it became a job that I just love and want to do it forever, because I love drawing.
Anyways, sorry if my english sucks sometimes. I will open again the commission list soon, by the way. The people that already were in the old list, will receive a note from me, asking if they still want their commissions, if they do, they will be added to the new list. I'll do it as soon as I finish with the pending work I have.
By the way, you can follow me on Facebook, sometimes I upload stuff I'm not putting here in dA (sketches, works in progress and that) --> www.facebook.com/dferofficial